I’ve started this podcast more times than I’ve actually followed through.
Not because I didn’t love it.
But because every time I sat down in front of the microphone, it asked me to stop hiding.
And for a long time, disappearing felt easier than being fully seen.
This podcast has watched me become.
And unravel.
And return.
Over and over again.
Some episodes were recorded from hope.
Some from heartbreak.
Some from the strange space in between where your life is changing faster than your identity can keep up with.
I’m not here as a guru.Truthfully, I think I’m just someone trying to experience this life as fully as I can before it’s over.
The love of it.
The grief of it.
The desire.
The longing.
The beauty.
The shame.
The reinvention.
The terror of becoming someone your younger self would recognize as brave.
A lot of my life has been spent feeling too much in rooms that wanted everything simplified.
Too emotional.
Too intense.
Too aware.
Too sensitive to the invisible things no one else seemed willing to acknowledge out loud.
And somewhere along the way, I realized how many people are quietly carrying that same feeling.
Wanting their lives to be witnessed…
not analyzed.
Not reduced into a diagnosis or a coping mechanism or a lesson.
Just… held with honesty.
Because some things in life are not problems to solve.
Some things are heartbreak.
Some things are transformation.
Some things are the unbearable privilege of being alive and feeling all of it at once.
This podcast is my attempt to create the kind of space I was always searching for.
A place where we can speak honestly about what it means to be human while we’re still inside of it.
Not after we’ve cleaned it up.
Not once it becomes inspirational.
Now.
While it’s still shaking us.
While we’re still becoming.
While we’re still learning how not to abandon ourselves in the middle of our own lives.
So if you’ve ever felt like there had to be more to life than surviving it quietly…
if you’ve ever wanted someone to put words to the things you carry in silence…
Come sit with me.
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Sunday Jul 07, 2024
Sunday Jul 07, 2024
**Trigger Warning: This episode builds on themes of trauma and healing discussed in the previous episode. Listener discretion is advised.**
In this powerful continuation of my healing journey through sexual assault, I dive into the complex emotions that I haven't touched on yet. In this episode, I explore the profound feelings of shame and the resentment I harbored towards my parents, especially my father. While I understand he did his best, these emotions were a significant part of my experience, and I felt guilt for feeling them.
I also share my struggle with feeling disconnected from my maternal feminine core, grappling with fears of bringing children into a messed-up world, and the anxiety around raising them and potentially messing them up. Despite these fears, I found healing and reassurance in my male friends, who offered support in ways I hadn't expected.
Additionally, I discuss my battle with high-functioning depression—wearing a smile out in public while, at home, the voices of doubt and despair were winning. In a liberating and powerful moment, I allowed myself to fully embrace the intensity of these emotions without judgment. This self-compassion and acceptance were crucial in creating a safe space for myself, something I had not yet received from men. Join me as I navigate these deep emotional waters and find healing through understanding and self-love.
Resources for Those Struggling:
- **National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN)**: 1-800-656-HOPE (4673) - Confidential support and resources for survivors.
- **National Domestic Violence Hotline**: 1-800-799-SAFE (7233) - Support for those experiencing domestic violence.
- **Crisis Text Line**: Text HOME to 741741 - Free, 24/7 support via text for those in crisis.
- **RAINN (Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network)**: [rainn.org](https://www.rainn.org/) - Information and resources for survivors of sexual assault.
- **Pandora's Project**: [pandys.org](https://pandys.org/) - Support and resources for survivors of sexual violence.
- **The Joyful Heart Foundation**: [joyfulheartfoundation.org](https://www.joyfulheartfoundation.org/) - Resources for healing and recovery.
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